Accepting the Abundance (Hare Hare Lakshmi!)

Trust in the abundance. That has been my theme over the past two months--a pertinent one, as I leave my life and love in Paraguay, and continue into the unknown. Brazil, yes, is mostly uncharted territory, but I also include the US in the "unknown." After two and a half years, after all the changes I have gone through, I would be surprized if "home" didn´t feel a little foreign. In preparation for that I continue to call upon Lasksmi, the beautiful goddess of abundance (as well as wealth and beauty), to whom I was attracted at the early age of seven, with her long, flowing hair, draping sari, and her graceful stance, blooming out of a lotus flower. Growing up, my mom kept a picture of her on her bedroom alter, but it is only recently that I have come to appreciate her powers, and not just her looks.

I left Paraguay on a bus with a backpack full of my belongings and the heavy burden of a broken heart. I arrived in Florianopolis, Brazil two days before the start of my yoga teacher training: . I spent those two beautiful days on a tropical island shrowded in my own grief and utter confusing about my path, feeling vulnerable, and questioning my choices and my future. Luckily I was couchsurfing with my very hospitable new friend, Diego, who helped me to appreciate the kindness and generosity of total strangers. Abundance.

On February 6th I started my one-month-long intensive to become a GreenPath-FindBalance-Vinyasa teacher. With 28 fellow students from around the world and three gifted teachers (from San Francisco, Switzerland, and Brazil), I called Enchanted Mountain home, a beautiful jungle retreat center, overlooking the ocean, with a waterfall, natural swimming pools, and all the delicious, vegetarian food I could ask for. My body went through some serious cleansing after my meat-and-grease-heavy Paraguayan diet.

We became a family during the course. It was an intense process, at times, but a healing one. It was also a lesson in abundance--to give all I can in this moment, whether that means putting my honest strength into chaturanga and trusting that I will have more for what comes next, or allowing myself to give love without feeling like it´s something I need to hold onto. On the contrary, by opening my heart, it only becomes more satiated.



Upon graduation, I rented a house during Carnaval in the beautiful seaside village of Praia da Rosa with eight other yogi friends, and my girl, Betsy, who came down from the States. We maintained our yogic balance, while still showing Brazil how we can get down. And we can. After Carnaval, Betsy, Ali, and I headed north, back to stay with my couchsurfing friends for a few days, and then onward to Ilha do Mel (Honey Island). Our plans went slightly awry with the crazy amounts of rain that hit Paradise, washing out entire highways, but we managed to continue north in search of the sun. We landed on Ilha Grande (Big Island), a mostly-preserved chunk of jungle with some of the most beautiful beaches in the world, inhabited by monkeys, armadillos, iguanas, snakes, and birds (and that´s just what I saw!).

Betsy, Ali, and I went our separate ways; I, northward to Rio, where I couchsurfed with a friend I met in Rio last year during Carnaval. He took me to a beautiful beach with an amazing view of the city. I left after a few days, and on Ian´s suggestion, headed to the tiny village of Caraiva, in the state of Bahia. From Rio I took three buses, a ferry, and a rowboat to get here, but (or perhaps because of this) it was well worth it. Hugging the sea on one side of the village and a river on the other, this was the perfect place to relax with a cold coco verde and watch 360-degree sunsets.

I continue northward, stopping off to visit a friend I studied yoga with, and then onto Colombia to be reunited with my beloved sister after over a year!

Return to my Old Home

After Bolivia my travels took me back through Paraguay to visit volunteer friends and reconnect with my community. I had been a bit nervous about returning, wondering what my place would be in Arroyo Moroti after leaving two months beforehand. My work there is done, and there is another volunteer in my place now.

At the end of November I had two despedidas (going-away parties). One was sponsored by my farmers´committee, who killed a pig and chickens and gifted me and personalized leather terere set. My next despedida involved the whole community, or at least the people I knew. MOre grilled meat, more sopa, more dancing, and a drunken fist fight. Both of these parties were touching, but my last dinner with my favorite host family was the most emotional. My host mother, Marina, who has been a bottomless pit of support for me over the past two years, took me in her arms and told me how proud of me she was, and that I have become their daughter, sister, and friend; that I am always welcome in their family. We were all crying, even my 13-year-old host brother, Gustavo, and my shy dad.


I cried again as I watched the sun rise on the bus to the city, and many times after that. It was not only the sadness of leaving people who have become dear to me, but leaving a life that I have been blessed to experience and will probably never have again. Being a visitor to Arroyo Moroti is a definate plan, but I hold no false hopes that everything will be the same.

With these thoughts, I arrived back to Arroyo Moroti, on moto, and I felt completely welcomed and loved. I ate lunch at a different house everyday, a campo fiesta was thrown in my honor, and I felt free to enjoy the priveleges of living in Paraguay without the responsibility that came with working there. After a week, it was hard to leave a second time, as well, but now I know how easy it is to return.


My next adventures take me into the enchanted mountains of Brazil, where I am currently studying yoga. More on that later...

Our Just Deserts

The desert wants to keep me, and I haven´t yet decided if it´s out of love or hatred--towards me, that is. My nostrils burn from the high, dry air, and everything is covered in a fine coat of desert dust.

The first desert adventure began as Jason and I were heading north from Chile to El Bolson, a little micro-climate hippy community just south of Bariloche, Argentina. The bus treks up Route 40, which is nothing more than gravel streching through an endless desert, east of the Andes. The trip was supposed to take 25 hours, already a harrying journey on a crammed bus on bumpy roads. Halfway into the trip the bus broke down and after hours of poking, prodding, and crawling under the bus, it was deemed unfixable. As we were in the middle of the desert with no cell service (less water or food), we had to wait until someone passed us to send a message along for them to send a rescue bus...and hope that the message was transferred. We finally got word that one was on the way and would arrive in about ten hours. So we waited.

We scooped sludgy water from a questionable pit 3km down the road, and dug through my pack for the iodine tablets. The hot sun slipped below the brown horizon and left us in a bitterly cold night, and still no bus in site. We spent the night on the bus, and 24 hours later, a bus finally showed. Apparently the rescue bus had broken down, as well, and this was the third try. We arrived at our destination one hour before 2011.


The desert tried to take us again at Quebrada del Diablo, a `mountain-biker´s paradise´ outside of San Pedro de Atacama, in northern Chile. We rented bikes, lathered on sunblock, and headed out to crumbly grey rocks below a blue, cloudless sky. After crossing a river up to my shins, the sandy trail narrowed into a crude labrynth of compressed sand and clay (which is only held together because it never rains) with outcroppings, sharp corners, and a few places where we had to lift the bikes up to continue. At one point, a smaller trail led off to the right, and I parked my bike and followed it on foot. Soon the trail forked. It forked again. And again and again with no end in site. That was when I first felt the presence of this canyon´s namesake (i.e. devil). So I turned around, and we continued on our collective four wheels.

Two-and-a-half hours into the journey, my bike chain broke, and after multiple failed attempts at reconnecting it, we decided that one of us had to go on ahead for help. The map clearly markes this as a loop, but the trail was getting more sketchy, with more forks and less clarity. Plus, the sun was hot, and our water bottles were not getting any fuller. Jason started walking my bike back the way we came, and I sped ahead on his bike as fast as I could, considering my options, knowing no car or even a horse could make it through here. Images of Ralph Fiennes in `The English Patient` kept creeping into my head, him stumbling down dunes in a desheveled turban, crazed from dehydration. Perhaps it was these fantasies, but I arrived surprizingly quickly to the river, where about ten people were hanging out in the water. Jason arrived shortly after, and we got a ride back into town with a local family, disaster averted.

It has not rained in San Pedro de Atacama since 2000. It used to rain in this desert oasis more like seven days a year, but now water is scarce. The riverbed is a pile of dusty rocks, and from the top of the lookout I climbed (where the indigenous peoples held a fortress and managed to stave off for the Spaniards for a good number of years), I could see a swath of green snaking through the valley and widening at the town--the oasis, the product of a one-meter-wide canal coming from the river.


Back when it used to rain, farmers were allotted an hour each day to irrigate their corn and wheat. Now there is no wheat and little corn. Food is expensive, as you might imagine, but locals love this place and are proud of their roots, and tourists flock here from all over the world. Rightfully so. There is a lot to do here, just walking and biking distance from this tiny pueblo. We managed to go sandboarding (think snowboarding, but on sand dunes), watched the sun set over Valle de la Luna (so called because of the formations in the rock which resemble the surface of the moon), walked through ancient ruins, and watched stars through telescopes in the middle of the dark desert, where I bathed in starlight that had been travelling since the time of Colombus to get to me.